As I sit here on the days between Christmas and New Year I’m struck by how different they feel to the days before I was a Mum and self-employed. When working full time, the thought of 10 days off with no responsibilities was an absolute joy. All of my friends were off work at the same time yet London was empty and fully open! I spent time in galleries and pubs relishing and really feeling like I deserved the complete break. Guilt free!
But this year is the first time I haven’t felt that way. My main responsibility most of the time is being a Mum, and this is time spent at home. So these Christmas days at home are no different to the usual days. My partner is also self-employed and often at home so that doesn’t seem so different. I feel guilt for not working on my business while eating biscuits and watching a Christmas movie. Unfortunately, it just doesn’t have that same delicious feeling it used to have. What a surprise that is to me.
But why should I feel this disappointment and guilt? Being a Mum and self-employed is actually constantly working even if not in an office. Obviously we are always allowed a break but I suppose when you’re a parent you can never truly switch off. That’s something I’ve been learning a lot over the last few years.
My post natal course will give you the tools to be ok with taking a break and give you a new understanding of your habits to give yourself resilience, strength and a feeling of being in control.
Starts January 15th.
All participants will get a free one-to-one Alexander Technique session after the course.