So I've been thinking about why my back pain developed and why does it keep coming back? I happened to watch this TED talk last week. The research shows that people who aren't afraid to show vunerability are the happiest people. I got to thinking that I hadn't let myself be emotionally vulnerable for a long time - I've recently moved cities which means meeting a lot of new people and being 'on' all the time, I'm also coping with a growing toddler, and my mum has been unwell which meant I had to postpone my wedding. Suddenly my back goes which reminds me of a vulnerability in my body and forces me to be vulnerable emotionally - relying on other people for help, not being able to give to my daughter. I was admittedly wiped out and was quite pleased with the excuse of sleeping for a few days to tell the truth. After that I feel renewed and refreshed.
Now my thoughts turn to showing that emotion. I would like to show my daughter that I am vulnerable as I think it will help her to understand her own emotions. To know that not everything is always good and happy. Sometimes people are sad and that's ok. And that's when we can reach out to our friends and family. I hope I teach myself that and do the same before I have another back muscle spasm.
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